Second Wind

I may have gotten my second wind.

I do not know and I am not sure.

It has only been a week and and maybe it was just a thing of the moment.

I am looking forward to better days at work.

I’m gonna rest this Sunday and do better at work tomorrow.


How To Burnout Employees

You know you’re doing a good job when:

  1. Assign them to a totally incompetent line manager
  2. Make them do all the thinking and have the line manager micro-manage them
  3. Have the micro-managing line manager move to another department
  4. Remove one half of the original pair and inject another officer who’s just thinking about retirement
  5. Make them do all of the work and supervise them oh-so-slightly
  6. Assign urgent items and request for items that were put on hold
  7. Give them work that should be handled by a team of 4
  8. Leave all of decision making to them
  9. Be completely oblivious to the need of having a framework or direction

That’s probably a good way to start.

And, honestly, I am on the verge of having a burnout. I am completely lacking in confidence and I don’t think I want this anymore. I am actually looking for a direction. A framework. If I could only tear everything apart and build my own program, I’d probably do it. However, I do not have the expertise to do it and I don’t want to build it based on feelings and irrational judgment.

That’s all. Maybe that’s why I am lethargic or unmotivated most of the time. That’s probably why I am tired or always looking forward to the end of the day or the weekend. I just hope things will pick up soon.

And I just hope that I could have the courage to say: “I don’t think this project is working.. Let’s just build our own first and conform to an international standard once we have matured.”

There’s still hope though. There’s hope that a phoenix will slowly rise from the ashes that burned.



Taken at: Metrotent in Pasig City, Philippines

Tonight was the celebration of the company’s anniversary. I want to commend the organizers because it really felt like a celebration. Previous “celebrations” were held during work hours so you wouldn’t really think that it’s as inclusive as it should be.

It’s one of the company events that I didn’t regret going to. It was fun and enjoyable. Looking forward to more anniversaries!



Taken at: UnionBank Plaza in Pasig City, Philippines

It’s work appraisal season. I believe that it was a good year and I look forward to an even better year. I got praised by my boss and she thinks that I’m a great addition to the team. It makes me even more curious as to how things will go.



With the changes in the organizational structure of the bank, an executive asked me this question:

How are you doing now that the effective date of transfer is near?

It was then that I realized how I never bothered to think about the unnecessary feelings that comes with the change.

I quickly answered:

I really never thought about it because I have a lot on my plate right now.

Then, she answered back:

It’s just normal that someone of you’re caliber won’t worry where he’ll be put.

To be honest, I was thinking about it. I thought about it for a day. Then, it was just all work after that. I wanted to prove something. I wanted to say that whoever left this project is not necessarily needed.

But, I was also struck. Someone of my caliber? Me? What did I do?

Anyway, that was just a good way to end the workday. And, to be honest, it’s 9 PM and I’m still at work trying to finish this review of documents and start my collection of data.