You know you’re doing a good job when:
- Assign them to a totally incompetent line manager
- Make them do all the thinking and have the line manager micro-manage them
- Have the micro-managing line manager move to another department
- Remove one half of the original pair and inject another officer who’s just thinking about retirement
- Make them do all of the work and supervise them oh-so-slightly
- Assign urgent items and request for items that were put on hold
- Give them work that should be handled by a team of 4
- Leave all of decision making to them
- Be completely oblivious to the need of having a framework or direction
That’s probably a good way to start.
And, honestly, I am on the verge of having a burnout. I am completely lacking in confidence and I don’t think I want this anymore. I am actually looking for a direction. A framework. If I could only tear everything apart and build my own program, I’d probably do it. However, I do not have the expertise to do it and I don’t want to build it based on feelings and irrational judgment.
That’s all. Maybe that’s why I am lethargic or unmotivated most of the time. That’s probably why I am tired or always looking forward to the end of the day or the weekend. I just hope things will pick up soon.
And I just hope that I could have the courage to say: “I don’t think this project is working.. Let’s just build our own first and conform to an international standard once we have matured.”
There’s still hope though. There’s hope that a phoenix will slowly rise from the ashes that burned.